"I pretended not to care but secretly I was petrified. Everyone and everything was passing me by. I had no real friends, no single person who shared an equal interest in all games. I seemed busy, busy, busy, but I suppose, if I pressed, I might have admitted that, for all my frenzy, I was very much alone."

Today is a very peculiar day: Why? My dad's treatment is starting today. I do not feel like really talking to anyone about how anxious that makes me, but I had to take it out before it chocked me.
I have an urge to go run and let my thoughts go away with the wind rocking my hair but I have this flu of sorts and I feel my brain is real tiny in compare with the size of my head.