I am so anxious. Anxious in that tremendous way in which guts churn and legs hold tightly each other. Anxious in the way that makes you rub your fingers insesantly and eat as many chocolates as you can find.
Iam tired, also, of looking at this screen senselessly timelessly as if I am waiting for something to jump out of it. Words leave me and I do not understand why. My throat was so tight just a minute ago and now it seems I am missing air to be able to speak.
How to transform fear into something you can laugh of? How to make your worst nightmares seem as something not too serious? This is my circus! Gimme a whip!
Sneeze. I am about to. I want to stop it. It still happens.