Is this way too complicated or what?

Once, not so long ago although it does seem pretty far away, I watched Dawson's Creek. I was twelve during the first season so you do the math. I have been watching it again this last week. I am on the fifth chapter and I've got to say... man so much drama and man, I totally long for series like this one! I wonder if it is that I am denying myself the horrible growing up for real and I still preserve some of the adolescent aura.
I got to remember, to my damnation, my years in high school and geez louise! I definitely get why I enjoy it so much: "we are born, we live and we make a lot of mistakes in between before dying".


I also remembered about the man I most love during my school years and how that friendship marked my life. At the same time I started to have a flashback on how I've gotten a premiere look on how weird life is when you are a teenager. I have always wondered if all my relationships are disfunctional or if life if, plainly, disfunctional. In the middle of these twisters from my life I ended up using one of the phrases, very wise most of them btw, I heard there: "Love is a decition", and even when I have made many, many mistakes during my still short life I share that notion.
Last night I was a jerk with my boyfriend and today when we finally got to talk, after last night I sent him like three messages just trying to make myself look less like an idiot, he said:
"In five seconds you can make me so happy  which is only fair if we think how in less than a minute we can really hurt each other".
He is right and you know what? I do not want to hurt him or to get hurt but I know that it will happen, I just hope it is for something a little more worth it. There have been few men in my life, all of them significant to a certain degree even the ones who have been there just for a few moments of fun but none who can compare to this guy. We have had a strange on and off history and now that it is on again I certainly wish for it to stay that way but I wont let my expectations get too high... you know with all this cynical attitude I carry around.

Anyway if you ever get to watch Dawson's Creek...